Graduate School Paper Fail & Other Updates

CMYK_ESC_GRADSchool_StackedOver the weekend I received back the first major paper for one of my graduate school courses.  I received no grade for it because the professor, who is also my academic adviser, said that I did not really answer the questions asked.  She also wrote that my paper is casual, whatever that is supposed to mean, and wanted to know why I handed in the paper that I did.  Needless to say I was quite upset.  I spent hours, and HOURS and DAYS reading the assigned material and then writing my paper.  To end up with a no grade did a job on my emotional state.  I began to cry and then wondered if I am cut out for graduate school.  I did so well as an undergrad.  I know that much more is expected of students in graduate school, but how could I be that bad? Continue reading →

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Tour Xenia’s Kitchen on You Tube

I finally put up a video on You Tube and you can check it out right here.  I was nervous and there are so many things that I need to learn to make high quality videos, but it was also fun to make.  My goal is to churn out at least one video per week.  Please excuse the state of my house, but if I waited until everything was done a video wouldn’t go up for months.  I have been very busy decluttering and the more I declutter the messier my house is getting because I am taking things out to go through them. Continue reading →

Update on Xenia

good for the soulIt has been quite a while since I posted on my blog, but I was not motivated.  I have been so busy at work that by the time the work day was over I had no energy left to sit down and blog in the way that I have always enjoyed.  I was also stressed out.  The only thing that I was looking forward to for weeks was my annual spiritual retreat in Montreal, and that took place in August.  I needed it and enjoyed it immensely.  I am recharged while at the same time feeling extremely vulnerable to God.  I have been feeling this way for quite some time.  It is hard to explain.  All I can say is that I feel like I am standing naked before the Presence of God.  There is no more looking to the world for fulfillment in the human sense.   I enjoy my life and I am so thankful for everything, but I am recognizing a deeper meaning to it all that is making my perspective of life change.  I am falling deeper in love with life. Continue reading →

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Failed You Tube Video Attempt

Snapshot_20150802_6One of my New Year’s resolutions is to start vlogging on You Tube.  Since school took up the first half of the year I was not able to do anything about it.  So today I decided to get going.  I have no idea how to use my DSLR camera to shoot videos, and I feel uncertain about using my phone to make quality videos, so I decided to start by using the camera that is built into my laptop.  I never used it before despite having thins pc since 2012.  I had to first download an application named Youcam by Cyberlink. Continue reading →

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Failing Is Never Final


My first time around in college was straight out of high school.  The year was 1975 and I had just turned five years old 18 years old three weeks before starting college the first week in September of that year.  I did fine in high school, but college challenged me.  In hindsight I was not truly ready for college straight out of high school but, in a way, it did work out because those 52 credits that I earned at Brooklyn College cut in half the time I would have to spend earning my BS at SUNY Empire State College. Continue reading →

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